AAAHHHHH

This has been a crazy emotional week and a half between getting the Dossier finished and following the news out of Ethiopia. And not to mention Spring Break with my in-laws (which was a great time) in town.
We are feeling more hopeful about the situation in Ethiopia since we are hearing that MOWA will be writing 20 adoption approval letters instead of 5. Not as much as 40, but better than 5 FOR SURE!

And as my friend reminded me of yesterday, "God's timing is always perfect!" It has been so easy to be caught up in the emotion of it all. And I am realizing that I am a control freak! And I can't control any of this! Grrrrrr! Then I went to Job Chapter 38 and was silenced. And calmed. (And a little freaked out that I think I know what's best)

God says, "Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you and you shall answer me." He goes on to say, "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundations? Tell me, if you understand. Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! . . ." Ummmm.
In the end (FOUR chapters later in 42) Job humbly replies, " I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted." I want to say about Job "smart man", but it has nothing to do with being smart. I am reminded and will hopefully continue to be reminded and rest assured that God is bigger and greater than anything. We may never get a daughter from Ethiopia, I mean really I don't know. But what I do know, at least at this moment, is that whatever happens God is still the one in control. And I am just really thankful to be taking a next breath.

SO Anyway . . .

Yesterday, I bundled up all of the important papers for the Dossier and put them in the FEDEX package and sent them off to the adoption agency. Best $50 dollars I have spent in a long time. As soon as tomorrow we could be put on the waiting list. And the Lord is in control of that too! Amen and Amen.